Went to the new doctor. High hopes shot down again. Don't these stupid men understand? Why can't they LISTEN? How the hell did they get their medical degrees? Are they so de-sensitized to the complaints of patients that they no longer listen at all?
I had my stupid appointment with the neurologist today. I explained what was going on. I explained that I've had pain that has gotten continually worse over 13 years and that now I'm dizzy also. I told him that I'm taking so much ibuprofen that I constantly wonder when my stomach is going to just go ahead and split open. I tried and failed again.
This guy was a particularly insensitive ASS. He told me after listening to my complaints that I had MIGRAINES. "Oh, gee, really??? It took your high-falooting medical diploma on the wall to tell you that????? Yeah, jerk, I knew that one already. Yes, I have migraines. Sometimes. I know what a migraine feels like. I know when I'm going to get one because I know what my body feels like when one is coming on. I know about occular migraines, visual auras, etc. because I've experienced all of that and I'm telling you, you freak, that this is different!!!!" I told him all of that. I stood up for myself, I told him that this pain was different and starts in my neck and I know the difference, I've been dealing with this for a long time.
He said that my body is probably having rebound headaches from all the medicine I've been taking. Headache after headache is just running together and I can't distinguish them. He said that the dizziness is just because I'm in pain. He said that my neck could hurt because of the migraines. He said that all I had to do was stop taking the medicine and my headaches would stop. HAHAHAHAHAHA!!! Oh, that's funny you little idiot! If I could stop taking the medicine, I wouldn't be here talking to you. I'm here to see if you can ACTUALLY DO SOMETHING so that I'm not in pain all the time, so that I don't have to take the medicine, so that my stomach doesn't ache all the time, so that I don't have to wake up every night in pain. But just stop taking the pain pills. That'll do the trick.
Then. Then he proceeds to tell me that he will stick me in the hospital for a week on a morphine drip so that I can "get off" the ibuprofen and try to stop the rebounding headaches. WTF??? So, morphine would be better to be hooked on than ibuprofen???
At that point I burst into tears in his office and told him that this wasn't migraines and that I would stop taking the ibuprofen as soon as someone helped me.
He suggested that we try preventative migraine medicine.
I shook my head and said that I had tried like 4 preventative migraine medicines and they didn't do anything.
He said that I probably didn't take them right and which ones did I take?
I could only remember 3 of the names and told him that yes, I had given them fair trials of many many months each but they didn't help. And the pain has gotten worse since then. And the pain has spread since then, and that this isn't a freaking migraine you imbecile! My head feels like it is sitting on my spine wrong , and pain shoots from one certain spot in the back of my head/neck area to other parts.
I hate doctors. I hate stupid, idiotic people who suggest stupid things to me when they have no idea what the hell I'm going through here. Oh gee, just stop taking the pain medicine. Well, I haven't tried that approach yet. Oh, wait, yeah, I've tried to "tough it out" over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over and over....it usually lands me in the ER.
I can't take much more of this.